Smoke kills. Drinking alcohol kills. Driving drunk kills and so does love. Is it life worth living for? Love kills people, love kills. Have you ever heard someone saying "I died for love"? Well, love killed all the innocent and pure hearts that gave everything for love even their souls but love didn't give them anything back. We only love because we feel loved but what can we do when that love is not true? Nothing. Love is as bad as a cigarette, it reduces your life, it's an addiction. It makes you love more and live less and it's too late when you realize you wasted a life loving someone instead of loving life, giving everything you are instead of enjoying everything you are.
Love is a waste of me, a waste of tears, of smiles and fake laughs. Don't fall in love with me, I'll end up hurting you, punishing you, make you my puppy and in the end I'll understand I never loved you for real.
Yes I love someone although there's nothing I can do but forget. Life is too short for impossible loves, for tears, for losing fights. Some people were just not meant to be, some were. Some can't stay together, some were made to break each other’s hearts and some were made to be stuck forever to a love they don't love just because they think it was meant to be, you.
Coward!
And that's when I ask to myself, why do I still believe in people when everything I hear them say it's a lie?
But yes, I still think about you but you're leaving my body, my soul as you were just a tan. I thought you were a tattoo but maybe this is just a phase because deep deep inside I'm still hoping but I don't what to hope no more. You're gone, you killed me, that's it, I'm dead for you and I have to live with that. What will happen if I see you again? Some say I'm a good actress and even if I still feel something I might hide it, if I want but sometimes I feel like I have to keep it real, I have to show what I really feel but I guess you don't deserve it. Sincerely you don't deserve every minute I think about you, you don't deserve every piece of brain I waste saving our memories. I thought we could still be friends but you ran away from that simple job.
I'm not happy, I'm okay but I feel better when I don't feel anything.
I'm where some people really want me to be, I'm with my friends and right now there's no better feeling than this, they've known me since ever, could I ask for better? No! Even if I'm not emotionally okay with them I can give it a rest. I missed this, it's like we've never been apart, nothing changed.
But right now I'm emotionally unavailable, finally I got what I asked for, peace. No more boys or ex-boys, it's only me, myself and I and that's what I've been asking for. Some time for myself and it feels good, enjoying myself feels so damn good. I bet it sucks to be you right now and it's going to suck to be you every single day of your history.
I wanted you bad, I wanted you, not anymore. I don't know what I'd feel if you'd come back but sometimes we have to surrender and other times we have to fight. Weak people surrender because love might be the easiest way but I prefer the hard way, the painful path without man and/or love.
I’ve been dead but now I'm okay.
Love is a waste of me, a waste of tears, of smiles and fake laughs. Don't fall in love with me, I'll end up hurting you, punishing you, make you my puppy and in the end I'll understand I never loved you for real.
Yes I love someone although there's nothing I can do but forget. Life is too short for impossible loves, for tears, for losing fights. Some people were just not meant to be, some were. Some can't stay together, some were made to break each other’s hearts and some were made to be stuck forever to a love they don't love just because they think it was meant to be, you.
Coward!
And that's when I ask to myself, why do I still believe in people when everything I hear them say it's a lie?
But yes, I still think about you but you're leaving my body, my soul as you were just a tan. I thought you were a tattoo but maybe this is just a phase because deep deep inside I'm still hoping but I don't what to hope no more. You're gone, you killed me, that's it, I'm dead for you and I have to live with that. What will happen if I see you again? Some say I'm a good actress and even if I still feel something I might hide it, if I want but sometimes I feel like I have to keep it real, I have to show what I really feel but I guess you don't deserve it. Sincerely you don't deserve every minute I think about you, you don't deserve every piece of brain I waste saving our memories. I thought we could still be friends but you ran away from that simple job.
I'm not happy, I'm okay but I feel better when I don't feel anything.
I'm where some people really want me to be, I'm with my friends and right now there's no better feeling than this, they've known me since ever, could I ask for better? No! Even if I'm not emotionally okay with them I can give it a rest. I missed this, it's like we've never been apart, nothing changed.
But right now I'm emotionally unavailable, finally I got what I asked for, peace. No more boys or ex-boys, it's only me, myself and I and that's what I've been asking for. Some time for myself and it feels good, enjoying myself feels so damn good. I bet it sucks to be you right now and it's going to suck to be you every single day of your history.
I wanted you bad, I wanted you, not anymore. I don't know what I'd feel if you'd come back but sometimes we have to surrender and other times we have to fight. Weak people surrender because love might be the easiest way but I prefer the hard way, the painful path without man and/or love.
I’ve been dead but now I'm okay.
After New York.
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